Karma?

So today involved a roller coaster of emotions. My. Gawd. I started the day by receiving two packages of mail. Pretty happy to finally receive my hole punch pliers, which means I can finally start selling stuff! I will probably post it up soon... I've been busying myself by attaching findings to everything (so now I'm developing pretty bad callus' on my fingers...)

Anyways, besides that, I decided to go over a friend's place to chill and what not. We ended up deciding to go out for an early dinner/dessert or something. Then she smashed her side view mirror; and to be honest my heart stopped at the moment. I knew her parents and how strict they are. I know (to some extent) how they would react. I know they would kill her. So we basically searched everywhere for a replacement; for someone to fix the damn thing....

All I remember from today was lots of swearing, lots of screaming, lots of "what am I going to do?", lots of "just relax/calm down/it will be alright", the smell of petrol and a bird pooping on me. Worst luck.

But it was sort of bittersweet in the end. We laughed a little, I went home, and she faced her parents.

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I hope she's still alive.

-- Also, how do I change the time it posts at? Cause I think it's set to the wrong time zone...

Professor Layton

I recently just finished the most recent installment of the Professor Layton game series: Professor Layton and the Miracle Mask. Some people who know me in real life would know how much I love the Professor Layton series, and the most recent game was not a disappointment at all. I don't think I've ever been disappointed with any Professor Layton game.. At times it can be predictable (because obviously it's a children's game and there will always be a happy ending - well most of the time anyways) but I think that's one of the factors which make it so.... likable.

Basically the series is a bunch of puzzle games (over 100+ puzzles in each game) and there's a main plot with Professor Layton being the protagonist. The games are made for the DS/3DS and are so so amazing hehe. The one I'd recommend would be Professor Layton and the Unwound Future/Professor Layton and the Lost Future. The plot is so amazing it made me cry.

Anyways, I think what draws me the most toward the Professor Layton games is how it is such a positive game. What I mean by that is; how morals and scruples are represented through the game, and how having a strong moral structure is a good thing to go by. Professor Layton takes pride in being a gentleman and teaches the importance of being a gentleman to his apprentice, Luke Triton. Despite the predictability of the plot, you just come to love it anyways. Sort of like the classic Disney movies. We all know what's going to happen, but we tend to rewatch it over and over again anyways.

I'm kind of sad I finished the game; it's a similar feeling you get when you finish a good booking. You have that sense of attachment to it. I missed out on playing the game previous to the Miracle Mask, so I might try to get my hands on that. Hehe.

L to R: Angela (Randall's girlfriend), Randall (Layton's best friend), Prof Layton (when he was younger). I'm lovin' Layton's hairdo

pickle

So, yesterday was a childhood friend's birthday and he decided to celebrate it today, with none other than a giant birthday bash. The night was going well, until probably the last half hour while I was there.

I have three really good friends. There was a point in my life, where all 4 of us were all really good friends, bum chummy and everythang. And then one liked another, got rejected and held a grudge since (in my opinion anyways). I've spoken to my other good friend about it (remember, there were 3) and he backs up the one that got rejected. Mind you, they're best pals, so I kind of expected him to back him up anyways.

But, I'm best pals with the one that was liked (hehe how confusing is this story) and to be honest, I don't even know what to do anymore. The past few months, I've been hanging out with 2 of them and I'm not saying it was the best thing to do; heck I probably shouldnt' have hung out with the 2 of them to begin with. I'm a person that's fairly big on morals and such; well, I hate lying, cheating etc. I'm a fairly straight up and honest person (I hope). I don't know what to do. It's kind of eating me up inside because the person being left out is such a good friend of mine and she doesn't deserve all this because she didn't do anything wrong!!

I'm done with this; I hate being the middle man. Sigh.

I am slightly tipsy. And slightly emotional. And this is the result of the two.

why the blog?

I'm not even sure why I decided to create a new blog - I previously had 2 others but they failed. I remember not long ago, I went back and read through the posts.... Gosh how embarrassing. Anyways, I think all I really wanted to do was to recap on 2012 since it was an eventful year for myself. I think I might continue with this blogging thing - Nita always told me I should document my feelings and shiz, somewhere so I can recap and determine what triggers my episodes. SO anyways, this will be good for me (I hope!) and anyone out there reading this, forgive my double post hehe.

I'm not even sure if I will distribute the link to the people I know. Maybe over time I will.

2012

2012 has finally ended. And not trying to be dramatic or anything, but I think I can safely say that it has been a very crazy and eventful year. So many things happened during the past year which have definitely defined, and redefined me.

2012 meant the second year of uni for me. It also meant a whole shitload of stress. Not to say that it was a bad year for me (trying to be positive here), but it did help me grow I suppose. The first semester was Hell. With a capital H. I came close to failing a subject (technically, I did fail) but miraculously gained an extra two marks as I was eligible for the supplementary exam. My god I don't think I have studied so hard in my life. This subject (energy and mass transfer - anyone doing chemical engineering will understand the torment this subject put me through) resulted in my first ever all-nighter (yep, no all-nighters until then) and me reading the textbook thrice over. That was how desperate I was to pass.

But anyways, moving past that, 2012 also meant taking the giant step in finding help to guide me back to the right path in life. This meant, having a mini reunion with my GP who I hadn't seen in 5+ years, and spilling all the poison that was choking me. He understood and sympathised and helped me overcome my inner demons. This involved introducing me to Nita - my saviour of sorts. She listened to me rant, helped me handle my emotions and steered me in the right direction. The choice to seek help honestly changed my life. Anyone out there who is considering it, I insist that you do. It will help you to no end.

Besides the changes, and new things that were introduced to me in 2012, many things stayed consistent; which I am thankful for. My boyfriend and friends have stayed by my side throughout 2012, and I probably wouldn't be who I am today if they weren't here supporting me.

To my highschool friends, we have been through so much drama over 2012, but have somehow managed to stay great friends. I know a lot of people who are currently in 2nd year uni who have lost contact with their friends from highschool, so I am so happy and thankful for the lasting relationships I have with them at the moment.

To my uni friends who have stuck by me since first year. I know we haven't known eachother for that long, but some of you, I really believe will have lasting friendships past graduation. Those conversations I have had with some of you, on the commute to or from uni, or just relaxing at uni on a sunny day, will honestly stick with me for years to come.

And to Harry. You have stuck by me through thick and thin. You have seen me at my best, and certainly my worst. I admire you for putting up with all my bullshit and for supporting me through one of the hardest times in my life. You were always there to pick me up when I was screwed over and over again. You were there for me when I cried so hard, I could barely open my eyes. I am so appreciative of you sticking by me and putting up with my sillyness lol.

Overall, 2012 has been a roller coaster of a year. I have honestly experienced and learnt so much over the year. But then again, I'm glad you're over.

2013, I hope you're good to me! :)