2012

2012 has finally ended. And not trying to be dramatic or anything, but I think I can safely say that it has been a very crazy and eventful year. So many things happened during the past year which have definitely defined, and redefined me.

2012 meant the second year of uni for me. It also meant a whole shitload of stress. Not to say that it was a bad year for me (trying to be positive here), but it did help me grow I suppose. The first semester was Hell. With a capital H. I came close to failing a subject (technically, I did fail) but miraculously gained an extra two marks as I was eligible for the supplementary exam. My god I don't think I have studied so hard in my life. This subject (energy and mass transfer - anyone doing chemical engineering will understand the torment this subject put me through) resulted in my first ever all-nighter (yep, no all-nighters until then) and me reading the textbook thrice over. That was how desperate I was to pass.

But anyways, moving past that, 2012 also meant taking the giant step in finding help to guide me back to the right path in life. This meant, having a mini reunion with my GP who I hadn't seen in 5+ years, and spilling all the poison that was choking me. He understood and sympathised and helped me overcome my inner demons. This involved introducing me to Nita - my saviour of sorts. She listened to me rant, helped me handle my emotions and steered me in the right direction. The choice to seek help honestly changed my life. Anyone out there who is considering it, I insist that you do. It will help you to no end.

Besides the changes, and new things that were introduced to me in 2012, many things stayed consistent; which I am thankful for. My boyfriend and friends have stayed by my side throughout 2012, and I probably wouldn't be who I am today if they weren't here supporting me.

To my highschool friends, we have been through so much drama over 2012, but have somehow managed to stay great friends. I know a lot of people who are currently in 2nd year uni who have lost contact with their friends from highschool, so I am so happy and thankful for the lasting relationships I have with them at the moment.

To my uni friends who have stuck by me since first year. I know we haven't known eachother for that long, but some of you, I really believe will have lasting friendships past graduation. Those conversations I have had with some of you, on the commute to or from uni, or just relaxing at uni on a sunny day, will honestly stick with me for years to come.

And to Harry. You have stuck by me through thick and thin. You have seen me at my best, and certainly my worst. I admire you for putting up with all my bullshit and for supporting me through one of the hardest times in my life. You were always there to pick me up when I was screwed over and over again. You were there for me when I cried so hard, I could barely open my eyes. I am so appreciative of you sticking by me and putting up with my sillyness lol.

Overall, 2012 has been a roller coaster of a year. I have honestly experienced and learnt so much over the year. But then again, I'm glad you're over.

2013, I hope you're good to me! :)